Everyone gets scared a little bit the first time they do something. Trying to climb higher than you ever have, sing louder than ever before, or walk tall into a room of faces you've never seen is scary. But what about a first time in a long time but its actually your bajillionth time and you should be good at this fear? Because that is a very real fear, and its definitely scarier than the first time.
The first time I ever wrote a blog post was almost three years ago now. And that was scary. But then I wrote 46 more that year and it wasn't so bad anymore. Now it's been three months since I've written and much longer since I've written anything I'm truly proud of and trying to sit down here and write for fifteen minutes is daunting. There's an expectation looming over me. This isn't my first rodeo, I should be able to write, and write well.
That expectation sucks, because the first time you do something you can expect to be bad at it. But after you've been considered a pro, and you try to come back, you have the expectation to be a pro, but with the skill of a rookie.
I'm picking up a pen thats ink has gone dry. I'm hoping that if I scribble around and shake it up enough, maybe it will be able to write again.
Fingers crossed
~Kat
